The first voice...
- Hemu Lumina
- Sep 19, 2019
- 2 min read
"When we will be mature" has always been one of my biggest concerns since I was 18.
A lot of people consider the moment when you turn to 18 years old is the event of you becoming mature. Even in the law, after 18, you can officially have sex, drink alcolhol, drive vehicles and so on. And in the family, your parents start to consider you are as an adult, you can go out late, move out of the house, more freedom... However, I have realised that turning 18 doesnt mean you becoming mature. I still need supports from my parents eventhough I moved out; I still act childish, unreasonable to the ones I love; I still cannot balance my life and become a mess sometimes; I am still irresponsible for my own life... So is it really mature if I am like that eventhough I am way older than 18 years old now. So if it is not the event of being 18 to be mature, then when we will be mature?
Both happy and sad events or even the one that broke me badly, did not make me become mature (because I still do stupid things afterwards, or even repeat the mistakes for several times) but for sure they left me a lot of lessons.
So, perhaps, being mature is not just a GOAL that we can achieve, it is actually a JOURNEY that we have to experience.
I had an operation last month. During one week, I could not do anything, even breathing was hard for me. I had to lay on the bed most of the time, and I had to depend on the nurses and my friends to support me with my personal things. Life can change so much after just one moment and we totally cannot control it.
On a bright side, that was kind of a trigger for me to have an idea of working on this blog and plan to try a lot of things that I wanted to but did not have enough motivation to do. Instead of wondering about how my life will be in the future, when I will be mature; focusing and enjoying the journey I am taking will bring much more benefits for me and myself. And hopefully, this blog will be some sort of diary, or memories captured for me in the future when I look back and realise how I become mature.
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